Rear-ended

Before I get started on this, I should tell you that all are safe and sound, especially our Nylabelle.

Tonight, for the first time ever in my life, I was rear-ended. Paul, Nyla, and I were in the car driving to the library for some evening energy-spending time when we were hit by a car from behind. On a positive side, it wasn't at a ridiculous speed. But let me tell you, the inner lioness in me came out.

I was driving, and having never been in an accident before, I was in a state of shock when the car hit us. Paul was damn near out of the car already as I was pulling over to the side. I turned to Paul and matter-of-factly said, "Okay, don't be mad at them." These are words I should have directed at myself because at that moment, I peeled off my seatbelt, flew my door open, and screamed, "WE HAVE A BABY IN HERE!" I. Was. Pissed.

A long story short, the girl didn't say anything about why she hit us. She was pregnant so I'll give it up to pregnancy brain, but I bet homegirl was texting someone. Grrrrr. I gathered her information but refused to talk to her because I was so mad. Thankfully Paul is able to be the reasonable, sensible half of us because he was communicating with the girl. I, on the other hand, was fuming. FUMING.

After the whole scenario on the side of the road was over, we drove off and I started to cry. In an instant, all of these questions flooded my mind: What if Nyla had been hurt? What if she is hurt? What would have happened if her car seat wasn't on right? Is her car seat on right? What if she's not breathing right now? Every possible scenario came into mind. Thankfully, my girl is fine and well and happily played all over the house tonight when we got home.

I literally never EVER want to be rear-ended again. It's these type of things that scare me and make me not want to leave the house with Nyla. Of course I cannot be a hermit and there are things that are out of my control in life. It's just scary! What if something worse would have happened? My mommy fears are still lingering, I see.